Random stuffs I found in computer...
Sadness"There is no such thing Alexis! He's just lying to you!"
"No he's not Raven! He really loves me!" Tears strolled down her rosy cheeks.
"Come on Alexis! It's only been two weeks and he's saying I love you?" She wiped a tear off Alexis' face.
"But I love him! He really does love me Raven I just know it!" She feel to the floor,covering her face. Raven wraps her arms around her.
"I just don't want you to get hurt."
"But Raven, I know he loves me and the only one that is hurting me," She released herself from Raven's hold.
"is you... and if you actually gave someone a chance to get close to you, you'll know how it feels!" Alexis ran out.
Raven paced her bedroom that night.
"Maybe she is right. Who am I to judge when I've never been in love? I'm such in idiot!"
She fell backwards on her bed and began to cry.
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Im so alone in this world, with no one but you..
Im so alone in this world, what can I even think to do
when all I ever want is to be with you.
You take away all my fears
when I feel that death is coming near.
You remind me what im all about
even when
Im so deep in doubt.
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She walks in the dark night, tears rolling down her face.The fear inside keeps her at a slow pace. "How can I look at them? How can I tell them?" Her sobbing growing louder and louder as she drew closer and closer to home."They won't understand. They just can't" She stopped dead cold in her tracks."I can't go home. I can't face them. It won't work out!" she yelled out loud.She quickly heads the opposite direction, now rushing. As she wipes the tears off her face she feelsa sense of relief, like she's wiping the fear and sadness that consumes her now."No! I can't do this. There's no point in running. I have to face them." She turns backs towards her first destination but pauses. Hurt so many times by the ones she loves, she thinks about what's to come. She has been emotionally scared by the ones that "love" her and left feeling that that's the only thing she can count on,hurt. She inhales deep and begins to walk. "They just want me to have a good future and by having an exceeding education can guarantee that. This will prepare me like nothing else. Opportunities are going to be thrown at me as much as I breathe air. She gets self confidence and rushes home. (she didn't want it to escape her and leave her vulnerable.) "Maybe I'm wrong and I just need to relax. Just put this behind me." she finally reaches her home. Taking a deep breath, she turns the knob and enters. She looks to find her family."I'm home. Ohhh. Hey Daddy."
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It all started with a fight just like any other I had before. However,the ending was like no other. I could never of guessed it to be true, and to this day, it still sends shivers down my spine. It's a night that is never to be forgotten. Just like I ended every brawl with my mother, I charged into my room, slammed the door behind me, and turned on my music. I fell on top my bed, grasping my pillow tightly as I cried. It's suppose to be a peaceful summer night, not a full out battle where everyone is left in pain.I reached under my blankets and grabbed my DVD player remote and programed it to play one song on the CD. Evil Angel. I turned the volume up loud enough to drown out my cries for a night
of peace instead of war and my huffing and puffing. It didn't work. I tightened my grip on my pillow so tight,the stuffing could of poured
out any second.
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I need to be with you again
I need you in my arms again
I need to hear you to say "I love you'
again
I need you
How can I survive
When I want to be with you
Your the light in my life
And it drives me crazy
That somehow you are gone
How could you be gone?
I'm waiting to be with you
I need to be with you.
Excited
Awestruck
